[Quacker]

Stole this from my xanga (so its not really stealing). I'm really just feeling "blah" lately...like this whole week.

Just friends. It's something hard to soak up after getting so close. God's will reigns best, now just to see what's in store.

Mmm also found out today that my cell phone bill is $400. That blows.

And I get to go into work at noon today instead of 4. And I'm working sunday

So yeah...little things add up and drive me to tears. Pray for me.

Edit -
Ok so i posted this before, but i needs to be posted again.


Untitled
Discouraged, dismayed
Distressed and afraid

Disallusioned, distracted
All emotions have impacted

Disoriented, misplaced
These problems I've faced

Determined, adament
You knew what I meant

Hopeful, eager
Love's so meager

Trusting, unknowing
The future isn't showing

God You still know
The seed I've yet to sow

[King Tutankhamun]

Holy crap! 400 dollar cell phone bill

[Black Op]

Heh, bloody school has also given me this "blah" feeling for who knows how long.......

[Uppy]

I'll pray for you. Don't worry. My dad spends alot of time on the cellphone so our bills are usually big too.

[Curufinwe]

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I will pray for you too ... for redemption of the phone bill
from now on, take your cell phone and make a sacrifice ... set fire to it
It willo save you a lot of money and you don't have to work on Sunday to pay for a huge phone bill again ...

[Quacker]

Eh, i'd have to work sunday, i was scheduled against my will lol.

I was irresponsible and didn't have self-control with my cell, so now I reap the rewards...er, consequences.

Jillian and I are working things out as "just friends", but its a lot more awkward and different. Its so hard seeing her and not being able to wrap my arms around her.

[goldenratiophi]

Well, it can't get much worse from here.

(famous last words)

I'm sorry anyway. I'll pray for you.

[Mythos_Ruler]

"Well, it can't get much worse from here." - General Custer, 1876

[Quacker]

Eh, it could get worse. We could have broken up, gotten mad at each other, whatever. I hope and pray that God takes the awkwardness away and that Jillian and I can develop a deep friendship.

[CodeOptimist]

I'll be praying for you. Sometimes God gives us trials to see how we will handle them. Just keep your eyes on Him and "... know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to [his] purpose."

[goldenratiophi]

I'm sure Jillian is or will be going through the same thing you are. It's summer. Go do something fun like bowling.

[Quacker]

Mmm Nathanael Romans 8:28 is my life verse.

Haha Carlos, i'm sure we'll try to have some good times.

[Quacker]

So there is a poetry thread...but this is related more to this topic.

I've Ever Loved Thee

A relationship, its what you said
What you wanted, but now its dead
Effort I tried, but it was not returned
It takes two, for those gears to have turned

It was meant to be, you and me
We were in love togther, and now I see
My love was not returned, yet on I say
How I long for you, I love you today

Puppy love, what you asked for
I'd give it thee, and so much more
Hard to get, that just smashed
My hopes, and dreams were dashed

What do you want, of me I ask?
Just tell me, I'd do the task
What from me, I dare not say
But from my heart, I will pay

So I do slip, and make mistake
Yes, I do fail, and instigate
I'm not perfect, as I said
Yet my love for you is not dead

I can't do this, no, not alone
I need another, another to bear the groan
I need you, yes you to hold
What about you, has it grown old?

Are you tired of me, wanting more?
Are you regretting me, just a bore?
Are you forgetting me, moving on?
Are you even knowing me, or am I gone?

My love lives on, in silence still
Wondering if, you'll love me till
I can do it right, show you how
I've ever loved thee, more than now

[Quacker]

Sweet, a triple post...muahahah.

A little update on the situation between Jillian and I...

Kissing never tasted so good (well, she is the first and only girl i've kissed). Yeah, we're back together and better off than we were. We're having fun times together as much as possible and its much less "constraining" as far as the previous jealousy and stuff went. I.E., its so much better now than before.

[goldenratiophi]

That's always good.

Did you go bowling?

EDIT: Does Jillian know that you are posting everything about your relationship on a public message board?

[Quacker]

Jillian knows pretty much everything I say, think, or do. lol...

Actually we did go bowling yesterday She smoked everyone the second game

[goldenratiophi]

Quacker, on Jun 24 2005, 09:27 PM, said:

Actually we did go bowling yesterday She smoked everyone the second game

SEE? Bowling is the heal-all! j/k, it's just my favorite game besides frisbee.

[Quacker]

Too bad Jillian doesn't appreciate ultimate frisbee like I do...lol.

[TheCobra1]

Ummm, who is Jillian? $400!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Do you realise I could buy the whole Lego Star Wars Episode III Collection????

Quacker, on Jun 5 2005, 04:50 AM, said:

Eh, it could get worse.  We could have broken up, gotten mad at each other, whatever.  I hope and pray that God takes the awkwardness away and that Jillian and I can develop a deep friendship.

[Quacker]

Jillian is my girlfriend, the girl in my avatar with me. Well i didn't buy the Lego Star Wars Ep. 3 collection, i talked for hours to Jillian...and that's better